Adios!!!

Dedicated to all my students...




The day you entered in my cabin
Scared and Spooked.
Reluctant to come in
and disinterested you looked
Hundreds of questions in your mind
about me and my cave
You refused to answer to the smile I gave
You thought everybody dislikes you
and that's why you were sent here
I knew you felt like a caged bird
as if you were grounded for the whole year
As I started talking to you
about me and what I do
You listened to my words
yet believed my words were untrue
I could see fear in your eyes
and in your trembling hand
I wanted to you to know
how you feel, I understand
So I gave you a great deal of time
to get used to me and trust me
I didn't force you to accept
anything you don't want to be
So days passed by and sessions
come and went
You started coming on time
and liked the time we spent
I taught and You learned
along that, your trust I earned
You work hard for your exam
and got good marks.
I saw confidence in you and
your eyes with sparks
Quietly I told you
I am proud of you..
You were a smart boy
I always knew..
You looked at me
and gave me a smile
You know that tiny smile
made my life worthwhile...

Words....

To, My Grandpa....Love of my life

 



My grandpa once told me, that our love can create miracles
I hoped, that one day I 'll be part of one... 
He told me"what you give, you get it back in return"
I made up my mind, that I'll be always giving out love
So,now years went by and my old man passed away
I still believe in his words and what he used to say....
He told me "being kind is more important than being right"
I've realized the same now, when I am helping demented minds...
He told me"don't give up on people whom you love, they always return"
I've never closed the doors of my heart on my own...
He told me "God always gives you what u deserve and what you worked for"
I've never been causal about my work and I've never given up on god...
He told me"Its never too late to say sorry"
I've learnt that no matter how big my mistake was, in the end I was forgiven...
He told me"Smile all the time if u want to fight loneliness"
I gained lot's of friends to smile with me and to relish life with them..
He told me"U will get the exact life U will wish for"
I've learned that I can colour my life with the magic wand..
In the end, He told me the most important thing
Still today its the biggest reason of my being...
He whispered "I love you " in my ears.
It made me feel special that day and will keep me happy for coming years..
I know he is not with me Today
I will never forget his words and what he used to say....

Tanuja Pawar

Crossroads

To my Brother.....




Confusion, within
Never-ending.. Commotion of thoughts...
Standing at Crossroads, A point where a choice must be made
One wrong direction and future will fade
What should I do? where should I go?
What is right? and What is wrong?
I am on my own, no one to hold on...


Until now, I was not allowed to take decisions on my own
And suddenly, I am left alone because, You think I have grown
You stopped spoon feeding me, without giving me a clue
You know, it’s scary, standing alone at crossroads, without knowing what to do…
I looked at you for help, but you were already gone
I am on my own, no one to hold on...


I really don’t know, what kind of games life plays
I am still amateur to infer life’s uncanny ways
I am not a coward, not running away
I don’t want you to do my work, but please be my guide, and lead the way
If you turn back on me, I have no where to go, no one to look upon
I will be on my own, no one to hold on...


What if I have grown up, got wings to fly
I will always need you, even if I reach the sky
I need your word of advice now and evermore
It will give strength to my wings whenever I soar
I don’t want to be on my own, I want to hold on
Being there for each other, that’s what I want from hereon…..

lonesome Rain

Dedicated to all lonely hearts.....


With the nightfall, the rain came down
I left my base… with dissonance and frown..
I walked few blocks in the rain ….uninterested and ignoring
It was dark, I was drenched and it was pouring……


I was wondering…. about now and then
Walking in the lonesome rain…
The same splatter once made me glad
At the moment, it is black and mad
The driblets of water are whipping me endlessly
At one time it used to smooth out, my stress so effortlessly
Once the rain was magnificent and alive
And today it is cruel and difficult to survive.
I felt, the approaching destruction….As the monsoon was roaring…
It was dark, I was drenched and it was pouring……


Earlier rain was fun,
I never missed warmth of the sun…
I used to go out, for long walks in the woods
I used to sit and stare, naughty waves and their funny moods
I used to paint assorted shades of sky
I used to feel revived and wanted to fly….
And now, rain makes me gloomy and I brood
I stay home and close my windows …. So it won’t intrude…
Sky roars most of the day
And transmits Storms, floods and dismay
Suddenly I was numb…and for me rain was boring
It was dark, I was drenched and it was pouring……


And then….
I saw…. A girl frolicking in the rain
She was as happy as rain, and without single drop of pain
Instantly, I realized…. Rain was not lonely
It was I who was Lonely, unhappy and left out...

Stills of Memories...

Dedicated to all preserved Photos.....

When I see, my photographs, the imagery possessions of my past

They tell me how the time has passed, quickly and fast...

On just a bit of paper the events of my life are caught and fixed...

On one small plane my life's all emotions are intermixed...

All the Happy moments, are caught with simple click

Don't know its real or just a magic trick...

In some of those, I see my silly and foolish smile

In some of those, I see myself thinking for a while

In some of those, I see me looking at the sky

In some of those, I have clicked someone passing by

I see my herd of friends making amusing faces

I see all the snaps of my favourite places...

It feels really nostalgic, taking just look at them

Recalling the past events makes me overwhelm..

Oh! looking at these stills memories, as reliving own past..

They tell me, how the time has passed, quickly and fast...

I have pic of my grandpa holding me

I can see him, whenever I miss thee

The pic of my old school makes me teary

when I was happy and believed tales of faerie

Jimmy running across the garden to frighten a crow

and on my birthday everyone clapping as the candle I blow...

It feels just like a ride on Time machine, taking me back in the past

They tell me how the time has passed, quickly and fast...

On some lazy Sunday, reminiscing all the afternoon

The pictures in my hands and singing a forgotten tune..

Returning to old days, and reckoning blessed past...

Oh! I wonder, How and when the time has passed, So quickly and So fast...

Tanuja Pawar

I am gracious

To, Didi and Jiju...and Nair Family..


I am gracious, to U wid all my heart
U made me what I am now...made me stand apart
U taught me to love and be kind..
when I was spoilt child and out of mind
Thanks for giving me home and the warmth I needed
all the hatred and lonliness from my heart it weeded...
U are my angel and my good friend
wid your love..YOU helped my broken heart to mend...


Sometimes I wonder, how U became part of life?
Its funny u became my friend..just like Ur dearest wife..
I feel that I know U for years...like an old friend
sometimes I feel U are also godsend...
Thank you...for coming to the life of didi's and mine
U are wonderful father and wid U everything will be fine....


I thank you all, treating me as one of you
for giving me time and ears and smile too
I treasure the time I shared wid you all
wid elders and new members who are still small..
so many.. kind poeple live under one roof..
here lives, humanity...and I am the proof


To word my gratitude...I don't have enough words or space
Oh! guys you all rock...For U all there is no replace...

I gave You Love

To.....(Not my friend anymore)..and people who lie to me...

Sometimes, I wonder..what A big fool I am
That I gave you My love
But, then...I thought U were my friend...
u breached my trust, and broke my heart..
and because of you , my world , and I fell apart


I always thought, U cared for me..But I was wrong
I dont believe...How? I was in delusion for so long...
U were My friend...thats what u said
all those lies of u are still in my head..
But, now I hate Myself...that I trusted you
u were born manipulative and will die too..


I don't want to waste my words much
but I need to let go what I seems to clutch..
the anger.. hatred..for you
hating u makes me think of U
So..I want to be indifferent to you..
I want you out my mind
coz..this is the only way I find..
with my words... I forgive you...to forget you
but...I hope in futrue I will not see you..

I am part of "YOU"

From now I will Dedicate my Poems to People who made my life special by more than "Just Being there" So, I dedicate this poem to, Ganpati bappa, thy part I am....









“YOU” are the one whom I trust the most
I am speaking ... my heart...coz there is no need to boast
About what we share and how we are
“YOU” are in my heart... “YOU” can't be afar...
“YOU” are there for me...whenever I need “YOU”...
Because “YOU” are the whole and I am the precious part of “YOU”...
In me… “YOU” are the hope, when I close my eyes and pray
In me… “YOU” are the smile that makes someone… happy everyday..
In me… “YOU” are the Love which helps me to endure pain
In me…"YOU” are the strength which helps me to live sane…
“YOU” can hold me and scold me for wrong I do
But When I am right...and want to fight... “YOU” are there for me too
“YOU” can give me everything… but hardly “YOU” take
But whenever I am wrong….then “YOU” point out my mistake…
I wonder sometimes, that "YOU" are divine and almighty..
but For me "YOU" are My Friend not merely a deity..
"YOU" laugh with me when I am happy...
"YOU" put up with my anger, when I am snappy
"YOU" meet me as friend , when I need a cheering soul..
"YOU" give out love, which makes me whole...
The Day, I took birth on this Earth..
"YOU" being there with me, made my living worth...
Today, when I am capable to take care of me...
I know..no one can give me care and love as thee...
So, u my lovely confidant...
I hope our bonding should live forever..that's what I want...
So, be there If I tremble on life's, difficult way..
I need your hand and that is what I pray....