Chance!!!

Walking away and forgetting you
Choices I made which I cant undo
became too proud,stubborn and cold
You talked, reasoned and cajoled
I didn't listen, made up my mind
Everything you said was declined
You cried, you fought for Us
but, I believed it was bogus
So, I left,I ran away from you
Choices I made which I cant undo


Now years later, when I look back
My decisions, My deeds and setbacks
I don't regret it, but I ache
Because I  made a huge mistake.  
I was impulsive and selfish,
what I did was entirely foolish
I never explained,Why? to you
Choices I made which I cant undo




I didn't explain, I was afraid
that u will laugh at whatever being said
But, I regret,I didn't even try
I didn't give chance to you accept or deny
I played safe, saved my heart
I believed, its best to depart  
didn't take the risk, to ask and tell
thats why,now I live in the hell
I don't want you back
I just want a chance, to tell you
Choices I made which I cant undo

To each other

It was evident in your eyes
I saw, the moment,u left
The Regret....with each other


It was illusion,we created
I inferred,the moment, u left
The Love....for each other


It was tragic, we endured
I felt,the moment, u left
The Deceit....to each other
  

Single

I don't want a garden full of roses 

I just want a single rose 

I don't want a sky full of stars

I just want a single star that forever glows 

I don't want hundreds of violins to play 

I just want a single tune which makes me sway

I don't want cars,long drives and places to explore
I just want a single walk on the endless shore
I don't want chocolates or solitaire

I just want a single hug with love and care

I don't want a prince charming or a knight 

I just want single man who loves me outright....

I know...

I know
It's probably impossible
that we will ever be together

but, what should I tell my heart?
It still wants to wait for you, forever and ever....

I know
It's likely unthinkable
that I will see you once again
but, what should I tell my eyes?
They still want to look for you, without complain....

I know
It's probably impossible
that I will listen to your words now and then
but, what should I tell my ears?
They are still waiting to hear from you again and again...

I know
It's likely unthinkable
that I will able to touch you, once in while
But, what should I tell my hands?
They still want to seek you with a hug and smile....

I know
It's outrageously foolish
that, You will ever know that how much I loved you
But, what should I tell Myself ?
Who still needs love and only love from you....

Tanuja Pawar

In LOve

Falling in love had once seemed so ridiculous
but now it feels so right
All myths become true .....
When wearing a shining armor
on the white horse.. comes your knight..
He smiles into your eyes
and he sweeps u off your feet
You tremble and mumble
trying to catch your racing heart beat...
You lose sleep and your hunger dies
You paint world in pink and desire to fly in high skies..
u blush and u smile and u daydream
and one glance of him makes your eyes gleam..
His touch makes you warm
and his smile makes you glad
with him you are ecstatic otherwise sad
Magical Experience Falling in love is, a consuming delight...
Though once it seemed so ridiculous, but now it feels so right...
Copyright"Tanuja Pawar"

Demise of separation

Dedicated to my wishful thinking....


In the middle of the night....
Beneath the starlit sky,
as she walks... looking at clouds passing by...
Her silk stole, is fluttering and her fragrance mingling in the space...
strands of hair drooping on her nape and she is walking with grace...
On the cliffs He is standing, waiting for her...
Looking at waves and listening to wind's soft murmur..
In one hand boom box and holding scarlet rose in other...
Like a rigid sculpture, standing still altogether..
As she reaches her destination and looks at him
His silhouette is beaming, and everything is grim..
She walks towards him...with quick strides
stressing to cease the distance, as them it divides
as soon as he smells her in the air and turns around
watching her pacing through ruff track..makes him spell bound
Insane urge in his heart, makes his heart sway...
promptly he walks to her, to meet her halfway
she looks at him, looking at her
in ruffled loose shirt and sea water droplets all over
wind is in his hair and smile on his face
his eyes are glinting with mischievous gaze.
he presents her the rose and holds her hand
and he puts on the music as he planned...
a tear trickles down from her eyes..
but her smiling lips are enchanting surprise
he takes her in his embrace...never to let her go..
they belong to each other...what if others say no...
she smiles into his eyes and he into her..
Just happiness ...from now..as they will live together
she clenches his hand and moves toward the peak...
he follows her silently..as there is no need to speak..
for a second they look at each other...as being on cloud nine..
knowing from tomorrow....everything will be fine.
Holding each other...they plunge into the heart of the ocean
and it takes them in... with simple harmonic motion...
the music goes on but there is hush all around
and on one rock ...a shattered rose is found....
mortals cry on earth but angels in the heaven smile
they lived for nothing...but died worthwhile...
YES!! now and forever..they will live with each other...
what if...life separated them but death wedded them together...

stirred and terrified.....

now there is whirlwind in my conscience
those departed sweet and sour memories
are returning... Just like.... life is coming to full circle
I am scared and standing with my all defences....to rebuff those adversaries
who made me feeble in the past...I was broken...
feelings were dead inside me....
I tried to gather pieces of my heart...though it was futile...
Everything was lost....
but still I live with those pitiful moments...
In my heart ...sealed and unspoken...
though once they made me soar in firmament...
and with my next breath I came down on earth...wounded
Just like the bird who's wings are slashed...but still alive
... Empty.. soundless.... and hollow...
I was dead inside..though breathing...and living in torment..
Days were lonely and nights were haunting...
as if I was lost in the dark forest of sorrows....disoriented
afraid of sunshine...as if it will consume me ...
hiding in the closet...as if the stares of people were too intimidating....
I was paranoid .....
but, then time heals all....
like Phoenix .. I took birth from ashes of my past.....
Buried all the feelings...and that consuming pain behind
Mended my broken heart.... with a fence of a secure wall...
and now..everything is coming back with U ...
what I left behind...what I couldn't end...
what I couldn't ignore...what I still feel
those all retentions erupting me and cutting me through..
I thought the wall was potent..U will not get through
But it was crushed with your one glance...
The wall is broken now...and U already pried in...
Now I am not able to snub U....
So, I am wound up....How I will face you?? stirred and terrified.....

I love you...

I thought U have already forgotten me...but I was wrong...
now...I know... I am there in ur heart.... all along....

But...always....
I thought you were not mine.....to me..... u didn't belong
I thought that we were incompatible.... we can't get along..
I thought you detested me.... for some reasons...might be very strong...
I was in illusion.....Why? for so long...

and....then....for while...
I thought I will move on... swallow what I feel..
I will lock my lips and my heart i will seal..
I will seek solitude...ampuated by my sense..
I will cage my spirit and constrain it with solid fences...

but...when u sang...that song yesterday
It made me realised what it had to say....
You vocalised my words in most precise way...
That forgotten melody.......made my heart sway....

Now...that..I know...
What I thought was wrong...
You never forgotten me nor my song....
So, now..I want to dedicate these words to you...
And this is my way to say "I love You"....