Quit?

                

                                                                Questions asked

                                                                Unanswered & left

                                                                Induced anxiety

                                                                Triggered Death wish in me.. 

                                                                             

Prayer

 

  A silent prayer,of a homeless child

  Looking at iron gates,and wishing to be inside

  No toys, no clothes and not even sweets

  That’s not what she wants and her heart needs

  She wants to hold pencil in her hand

  She wants to write on paper not on sand

  She wants uniform and sing a Morning Prayer

  She wants to play in the ground and be a team player

  Though she lives on the streets and begs for food

  All alone, she struggles, to earn her livelihood

  Yet, those small hands are wishing to reach sky

  Nothing matters when you aim high

  Simple wish to learn and to get educated

  Without any objection let it be granted

So....

His words were emollient

For my battered heart

It was derelict

From people’s bogus love

And vulpine support

My plethora of trust for them

Made this pain inevitable

So I cried, So I cried

Yet, I couldn’t kiss life goodbye

Cause I believed in good things

And in my good deeds ,

So I waited, So I waited

For my angel to come

And to heal my pain

And give me a reason to smile

And to sustain…

As he entered in my life

He revived my heart

With his benevolence

And unconditional love

So I laughed, So I laughed

Again….

Me

I stopped writing
I really don’t know why
Did I forget to weave words?
Or my emotions went dry?
So, without words I lived for a while
I didn’t liked it, I was sad, mad and rile
I kept on telling myself I can’t write
I left my ink, pen and paper out of sight
For time being I felt fine
I went out for dance and to dine
Yet, there was void in my soul
I was together but not whole
I heard my heart and its simple plea
That something was missing inside me
I looked for an answer or little clue
To find out, what I need to see through
And it suddenly dawn on me
That I have to write , to just be me….

Sunlight recedes     
        And the night awaits
                         Birds come home
                                And dusk elates


Roads turn still &
               Sky turns scarlet
                          Breeze turns cold
                                          And Sun sets


Clouds look gray
       After losing their glow
                   Some stars twinkle
                             Anticipating moon’s arrival




Yet the world can see
         There is glowing soft light
                      It’s has an aura of romance
                            It’s Twilight! It’s Twilight ! It’s Twilight




Tanuja Pawar

Adios!!!

Dedicated to all my students...




The day you entered in my cabin
Scared and Spooked.
Reluctant to come in
and disinterested you looked
Hundreds of questions in your mind
about me and my cave
You refused to answer to the smile I gave
You thought everybody dislikes you
and that's why you were sent here
I knew you felt like a caged bird
as if you were grounded for the whole year
As I started talking to you
about me and what I do
You listened to my words
yet believed my words were untrue
I could see fear in your eyes
and in your trembling hand
I wanted to you to know
how you feel, I understand
So I gave you a great deal of time
to get used to me and trust me
I didn't force you to accept
anything you don't want to be
So days passed by and sessions
come and went
You started coming on time
and liked the time we spent
I taught and You learned
along that, your trust I earned
You work hard for your exam
and got good marks.
I saw confidence in you and
your eyes with sparks
Quietly I told you
I am proud of you..
You were a smart boy
I always knew..
You looked at me
and gave me a smile
You know that tiny smile
made my life worthwhile...

PRATHM

Plenty prayers

Requested

Almighty for  

True happiness yet

Here I discovered

Miracle in veneration

Tanuja Pawar

Narcolepsy

Anxiety creeps inside me

 my each bone melts

Something inside me burns

and emptiness welts

my vision blurs and

speech slurs

and I feel Paralyzed

I look for place to

crawl in and shut my thoughts

the world around me

It's too bright and irritates me a lot
Its difficult to breath
suffocation  sweeps through
and I feel Paralyzed   

Daylight strikes in 

yet my eyes want to shut

I want to stay alert

yet there is sleep in my gut

I resist dozing off

as numbness engulfs

and I feel Paralyzed   

 

I feel weary, pale and weak

and fall asleep at vague times

I am perceived as lazy 

   but I am sick and its not a crime  

I feel helpless

as I succumb to sleep

and I feel Void    

 Tanuja Pawar 

Save the last dance for me

Inspiration : MICHAEL BUBLE "Save The Last Dance For Me"

Lovely song, Close to my heart and inspired me to weave words...




















Nothing stops you
When music floats in the air
You sway with it,even if there is no one to pair
Its in your blood, to dance on the beat
You weave your steps with your dancing feet
You forget what's around you and within
You hear the music and you spin
When I sense, you forget me in the crowd
and race with music beats, crazy and loud
I know It's your passion,It's rage and its in you 

You only know, dance and that is what you do
But, I feel scared... losing you to unknown faces
My eyes look out for you and my heart races
Then I see you, in the middle of the dancefloor
With your moves as music you explore
I stand there, looking at your feet moving with hers
My knees go weak and my vision blurs
My heart frightens,my breath suffocates
I wish to leave, yet my heart waits...
In a flash, with one fading glance,I look at you looking at me
You leave the dance floor as you come towards me
And I know, You are mine and you belong with me
You bow down and ask for one dance
I smile and get up to get into trance
We glide in harmony as rhythm comes along
You draw me closer as the DJ plays our song.
I forget all Insecurities and everything I fear 

I enjoy being me when you are near...
And I whisper, "go take the floor and have your fun"
Live your dreams but don't give your heart to anyone...
Remember....
I am waiting here and forever I will be...
and, Just like always, save the last dance for me....

Inspiration

Stimulation of the mind or emotions to a high level of feeling or activity....that's what dictionary says

But for me..The word "Inspiration" says hey, look at the world and learn to love,to enjoy, to embrace grief,let go hatred, wipe tears and respect LIFE..

When I write, its always someone or something that inspires me

So, I write for all those who inspired me to live my LIFE..

now, for coming months I am planning to write about it

So, here comes

Inspiration

Just a smile

or a sad tear

nothing divine yet words appear

Simple moments mingled with true emotions

create rare Inspirations

A goodbye kiss

for all time sake

A welcome party

with friends and a cake

A terrible fight

on the train

A long walk

In the drizzling rain

Silly gestures and celebrations

create rare Inspirations

A news of death

on the phone

A loud cry

for one's own

A stupid envy

towards a friend

A Lost game

in the end

Awful pain and misconceptions

create rare Inspirations

A strong shoulder

to lean on

A bitter past

and days bygone

A small talk

about relationships

A serious discussion

about friendships

futile debates and considerations

create rare Inspirations

Sometimes good, Sometimes bad

To my life, pinch of spice they add

My poems are just interpretations

of these rare Inspirations....

आस

      दु:ख आणि सुख माझे तुझ्यातच गुंतलेले
      दुष्काळ पडला की नदी शोधत राहते पाणी
      तुझ्या शरीराची सावली शोधते मे अनवाणी
      पावसाळ्यात रस्ता, भीक मागतो उन्हाचि 
      मन मागते माझे एक हाक प्रेमाची
      विराहाच्या वादळामध्ये सुख माझे हरवलेले
      गारव्यात सुर्या सुद्धा ओढतो शाल मेघांची
      रात्री अन् दिवसा सुद्धा,मे पाहते तुझ्या येण्याची
      ग्रीष्मात धरणीलाही, सावली मिळते झाडांची
      केव्हा येईल घटीका आपल्या मिलनाची
      वर्षानुवर्षे डोळे माझे वाटेवरच हरवलेले
      दु:ख आणि सुख माझे तुझ्यातच गुंतलेले 

Tanuja Pawar

गंध

ओल्या मातीचा तो गंध
आज पहा रे सुटला
अंगणात माझा बाळ
आज पाण्यात न्हाहला
पावसाच्या त्या सरी
डबक्यात बरसल्या
चेहेरा माझ्या बाळाचा
चिखलाने माखालेला
चमकली आकाशात वीज
आघात झाला तो ढगला
माझा काळजाचा तुकडा
येऊन काळजाला चिकटला

Tanuja Pawar

 

Single

I don't want a garden full of roses 

I just want a single rose 

I don't want a sky full of stars

I just want a single star that forever glows 

I don't want hundreds of violins to play 

I just want a single tune which makes me sway

I don't want cars,long drives and places to explore
I just want a single walk on the endless shore
I don't want chocolates or solitaire

I just want a single hug with love and care

I don't want a prince charming or a knight 

I just want single man who loves me outright....

You are my everything

Dedicated to my "MOM"

               

                


I never say, but I feel
the love for you ...which my heart conceal
no matter how much I try
while saying it my throat still goes dry
I don't know why? I can't tell you
Hey!!! Mom "I love You"


I can say it to my brother
and to everyone I love and care for
It's so simple and easy
yet saying it to you makes me uneasy
hey! I don't love you less
yet these words I suppress
I don't know why? I can't tell you
Hey!!! Mom "I love You"



I know you want to hear it
Yet almost every time I ignore it
You always tell me that u love me a lot
Yet I hold back..and stand like a snot
Its dumb..and Its confusing
Yet you love me...that's amazing
I don't know why Mom? I can't tell you
Hey!!! Mom "I love You"

 
I thought about it
Why can't I say it...
The words you want to hear
Coz these words are not mere
Its just that, and its a fact
They come with big responsibility
Saying and living up to them is still out of my capability
So.. Its not about Love or words, or fear
I want to be responsible & take care of you my dear..
So..please wait for a while
Till your little girl does something worthwhile
I want to make you proud
and then I will say it loud
I always wanted to tell you....
Hey!!! Mom "I love You"